Sunday, September 27, 2009

God Is Good...All The Time

I'm in a funny life stage right now.
Maybe life stage isn't the right term.

I feel like God is teaching me something new everyday.
Maybe I'm just listening for it now...maybe I wasn't tuned-in before?

It's overwhelming, in an incredible way, to be continuously knocked down.
At this point, I typically delete posts like this, and opt to post nothing. I'm not sure why. I think it makes me uncomfortable for someone else to mentally-voice these thoughts of mine.

I am trying my hardest to write everything down...or repeat them over and over in my head until I know they are stuck in place. I don't want to lose anything.

I'm also trying to figure out how to balance the tears--I am so quick-to-tears now.
{You thought I was bad before}
Now I cry about God's love and provision, the way He values us, practically everyday...which is great, but tough to explain to others...and really odd in Taco Bell, right?

I'm trying to keep up with all of this...I'm trying to hold on to as much as I can...
I keep fooling myself into thinking that Kenya will be a time for me to sit and reflect...when it will, more than likely, un-simply launch me further in to this journey.
As exhausting as it seems, I truly can not wait.

1 comment :

Julie Hibbard said...

I love you.
I believe you are at the stage of life when you truly (and finally!) figure out who you are.
God is good and LIFE is good! You've allowed yourself to be used and tested and broken...and lives have been changed for the better because of it.
This will be your toughest year, no doubt.
I have told people for years--that for some reason, at just about age 28, you just start to get it.
Things start to make sense and decisions become just a little easier.
Go with it. Take it all in. Process it all. Cry at Taco Bell.
This next year will certainly prove to be life changing. And it looks as though it's YOUR life that will be changed along with all the others this time.
Can't wait to see what God has in store for you!